“I will praise the One who’s chosen me to carry you.”

Our mission is to bring hope to hurting parents who are either facing a terminal diagnosis in pregnancy or navigating the loss of an infant. We have a scrabble wall in our home with all of our children’s names. When we added Reagan and Ian’s names it made a cross and that is where our logo came from. Reagan & Ian’s stories are helping us to point others to the hope of the cross. The hope of Jesus.

“I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.” Psalm 139:14”

July of 2019 is when we found out we were having a beautiful baby girl we had prayed so hard for. We were beyond excited and got to enjoy that news for about 30min before the doctor came and told us our Reagan had a terminal diagnosis called anencephaly. We had never heard of anencephaly until that point. I remember feeling like it wasn't us sitting there and I was watching a movie of someone else getting this terrible news. She was 10x more active than my son and I enjoyed feeling all her kicks and soaked it in as I didn't know how long we would have with her. I made it to 38 weeks and ended up having to be induced due to excessive fluid making it hard for me to breathe. 11/13/19 at 8:05am our beautiful Reagan Audrey came into the world at 5lbs 3oz 18in long. We had one beautiful hour with her before she went to heaven. Our hearts are broken and we miss our baby girl terribly but I would do it over and over again to have that time with her.

I began praying for twins and even had others praying. We were completely shocked and excited when we found out we were due with twins October 24, 2020. They were identical and shared a placenta. At 16 weeks they developed something called Twin to Twin Syndrome which required in utero surgery. I had the surgery at 16 weeks 5 days and we lost our precious Ian at 20 weeks. On July 14 Grayson and Ian were born at 25 weeks and thankfully we were able to hold our precious Ian Ray and kept him overnight. He was a tiny 1.5oz and 4in born at 11:21AM. 

Losing two children within 1 year is by far the hardest thing my husband and I have ever been through but we are thankful for God’s grace and that one day we will see our Reagan and Ian again for eternity.